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Allie
29 April 2009 @ 11:08 pm
not for myself. not for anyone here with me now. for three of my best friends. one, i havent heard from in days so i have no idea about whether or not she is okay. the second, has just vanished from yahoo, actually i'm guessing she's asleep and the third.... she's going through so much shit that she doesn't deserve right now. these girls mean the world to me and i want to do everything i can to help.. just what? what can i do? i can't take their hurt away, i can't wave a magic wand and make things better. if i could, i'd do it in a heartbeat. my crap means nothing compared to these three. i love them to bits, i cant stand seeing them go through this while i'm stuck way over here on this godforsaken island, stupidly crying over this, unable to do anything.

i just want them to know that i love them so much, and i'm here for them.. no matter how cheesy and stupid it sounds.

you girls know who you are.

xxx
 
 
Current Mood: scared
Current Music: my immortal - evanescence
 
 
Allie
25 February 2008 @ 04:10 pm
wtf?  
I am sick and tired of only doing things because they'll "look good for college". I hate having to go to music lessons every fucking Monday purely because 2 of my so called 'friends' want to get a grade. I don't want to pay 50 pounds for a piece of paper that says I can play an instrument. It's pointless. I have english, tech, maths, science and music coursework to do for school and i don't have enough time to sit around playing stupid classical pieces of music. I just want time to myself! All last week I was doing nothing but school work and now that i'm home from school I don't want to do more work. God I hate this. I know that my music lesson isn't on tonight because it was half term last week but I have to go along anyways because my "friend's" mum thinks it is. She did this last term too and we ended up going out for nothing. I know it sounds stupid but it's just totally pointless. Just because 2 people want to do a stupid exam doesn't mean that I want too. And they treat me like crap too, making me feel completely out of place. They think they're better at playing than me and when we go i'm the one that gets treated like the 5 year old who is beginning to play. She's been playing 1 year longer than me... doesn't mean she's better.

Ugh I hate this.
 
 
Current Mood: angry
 
 
Allie
13 January 2008 @ 10:45 am
1. Were you smiling when you woke up this morning?
Nope... teeth hurt lol

2. When was the last time you met someone new?
Yesterday

3. What is irritating you right now?
My teeh lol

4. When did you last eat pizza?
Last Saturday at Ryan's. We ordered in.

6. How many text messages are in your inbox?
um... idk? My cell is mia!

7. What's the furthest distance you've traveled in the past 3 days?
School.... it's a 30 minute walk!

8. Who is your sixth incoming call from?
huh?

9. Have you ever kissed anyone named Mike?
ew ew ew! Mike in my class is gross!

10. Besides your bed, what is your favorite thing in your room?
my computer :D

11. Do you enjoy piercings and tattoos?
Meh... idl tattoos and i've only ever had my ears pierced once so i'll have to get back to you on that one.

12. Who is in the room with you?
My cat was... but he walked out :(

13. What are you wearing on your feet?
Nothing lol

14. What is/are your favorite pair of shoes?
My kitty cat mary janes lol

16. Do you get along with your parents?
Most of the time

17. What were you doing before this?
Writing an app for another rp site

19. What instant messaging service do you use?
Yahoo, Windows Live and AIM

20. What is your favorite website?
idk lol i lovers so many

21. What are you going to do after this?
Lookie for an Avril icon

22. What do you wear more, jeans or sweatpants?
jeans. I don't own sweatpants lol

23. Does anyone have a crush on you?
idk. Maybe Ryan but hey, i'm not sure.

24. Can you drive?
Yeah sure, if you wanna die then hand over the keys rotfl.... No I can't.

25. When did you last buy a pair of pants?
um... pants as in trousers or pants as in underwear?

26. When did you last take a picture with someone?
idk

27. Where's your favorite place to be?
home

28. Where did you last sleep?
in my bed!

29. Where do you shop the most?
It's a mix between HMV and Underground Clothing

30. Where did you get the shirt you're wearing?
my pajama top?  Marks and Spencers

31. Coach Purse or NFL game tickets?
idk what NFL game tickets are so i'll go with the purse lol

32. Where was your default picture taken?
iconator.com ??

33. Who are you talking to right now?
No one...no one is on.

35. Are you happy with where you are?
maybe

36. Would you ever take someone back if they cheated on you?
depends on why they cheated.

37. Who did u last hang out with?
Online: Mell, Ally and Erika

39. Plans for today?
Shower, maybe start a video, cinema .... ALVIN AND THE CHIPMUNKS ROTFL

40. Who's the #1 person on your friends list?
On what friends list lol? Myspace: Annika, Bebo: Mell

42. Describe your dream car.
Um... either: Herbie, a VW Camper or Tom Quincy's Viper.

43. Describe the background on your cell phone.
The stage at the mcfly concert lol

44. Can you roll your tongue?
Yup

45. Do you have a job?
Yup

46. Where do you live?
in a house lol

47. Describe what you're wearing?
pajamas! Just woke up!

48. Do you have any pets?
yesh. 2 cats lol

49. Do you like candles?
Candles = <3

51. Do you sleep naked?
EW NO!

52. Whats your middle name?
Rose

53. Do you burn easily in the sun?
Unfortunately yeah.

54. Do you speak another language besides English?
French.

55. What was the last thing you ate?
umm...mash potato last night lol

56. Who were the last people you went out to dinner with?
idk
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Current Location: my room duh
Current Mood: bouncy
Current Music: When You're Gone (acoustic) - Avril Lavigne
 
 
Allie
31 December 2007 @ 11:41 pm
1. be happier.
2. not cry as much (kinda like the first one but shut up cause it's my list so ha!)
3. stop cutting.
4. eat properly and not throw it back up.
5. get help for my rp addiction (anyone know of a rp annoymous?)
6. keep my room clean (ha)
7. block a certain guy from my contact list.
8. actually make sure my phone is charged
9. cut down on chocolate ( i'ma go cry )
10. write more of my ffics.. they're being neglected.
11. SAVE INSTANT STAR!

there... that's my list for 2008. HAPPY NEW YEAR!
 
 
Current Mood: anxious
Current Music: Shine - Take That
 
 
Allie
29 December 2007 @ 10:48 pm
"The only show that I ever connected with. Instant Star has music, it has drama, it has comedy, it has everything that I look for in entertainment.

A lot of the teens who watch the show I think really grew up with it, too. As Jude changed the hair, as Jamie lost the glasses, as Sadie went from peanut jeans to pencil skirts, it was over the course of three years. That's three years of dedicating a decent portion of our lives to following this show, loving this show. And for a lot of viewers those three years were their growing up years too. As we were going into highschool, college, whatever, this show's characters and situations, though centered the music world, were also very much like ourselves and our lives.

But the most thrilling part of the show is in fact that music world aspect. We can almost vicariously experience our dream, as music lovers essentially, through Jude. Through a girl who is like in us in a lot of ways. She lives; she learns; she loves; she cries. She's growing up; she's imperfect; she's getting better, living life. But she's experiencing it in a way we can only dream of. And Instant Star gave us a glimpse of that dream becoming reality.

This show means a lot to us. As Sadie said to Tommy about bands in season 1, has there ever been something that you just connected with? You'd stand outside in the rain waiting for concert tickets...or, I don't know, spend nine months on a message board reading fanfiction and deliberating while waiting for the next season to finally air? Instant Star is that for us. Just give us this much. Save Instant Star."


 

I didn't write this, but I agree with it 100%. SAVE INSTANT STAR!

 
 
Allie
18 December 2007 @ 10:20 pm
...  
Why the hell is tonight so damn fucked up. I mean, one of my best friends is going through some things and i can't even help. I'm stuck here not being able to do anything to make her feel better. I hate her being this upset and me being stuck on the other side of the damn sea not able to go and help her out. I really want a magic wand so I can redo this, so I can make it all better for her. I just have this thing where all I want to do is make everything better for everyone. I hate seeing people go through this. Sure, I have my own problems but I don't care about them. They're stupid compared to hers. I tried talking to another friend, asking what to do and she couldn't give a damn. At least, that's what her tone on yahoo came across as. Now, the only people online are people that I cannot talk to about this. So i'm sat here, crying like the idiot I am, while she's going through so much crap that she doesn't deserve. I just want her to be happy but I don't know how to help. I sound so selfish in this but I just want it to all be better. Now I have two friends who are upset and one friend who possibly hates me. She went offline with just a 'bye' instead of 'ily, ttyt'. What can I do to make things okay again???!?!!?!?!?
 
 
Current Mood: depressed
 
 
Allie
16 December 2007 @ 08:33 am
I'm 15!!!

tis ... weird rofl
 
 
Allie
27 October 2007 @ 12:30 pm
So it's my sister's b-day and she's off playing with her doctor who toys... i'm just sat here rping on the laptop. I was stupid and signed up for one where each reply has to be 500 words minimum. I'm dying because anyone who has ever rped with me knows that I struggle anything more than 100.

I'm actually pretty proud of myself.... 580 words! Wow.
 
 
Current Music: 2am - Instant Star 4